yesterday night i went supper , i didn't blog about that . maybe i did but i forgot . hmm on my way home , i ask cy , what happen if like u happen to know a girl suddenly , just by looking and feeling , u feel like this girl is really a nice girl and stuff and u just like her and trust her with all u got , but in the end , shes just playing with u . his answer was like "woa i sure go crazy." something like that . i mean love ... its a feeling . can't really say u want or not . it might just suddenly make u feel it towards someone . but it might be lust as well . oh well , like it matters .

suppose to go buy stuff but the shop didn't open . thats when cy and nic decided to go tampines mall for a show . after i bath and had my dinner , they still haven't call . so i told my maid to give me root beer since my mom bought alot . but i saw the bottle of green tea , so told her give me a cup full of ice instead . pour all my remaining vodka into the cup and mix it with green tea . i really have no idea why . i mean i have such a nice mom that pampers me , 2 good friend that clubs with me and be there for me , knowing so many people during clubbing , now even have a sweet and nice girl that sms me so much . when i club at cocolatte , not in the mood to dance , when i'm out with nic and cy , i didn't talk much . even that day after dxo , i make myself 3 huge cups of hard liquor mix with coke , bottoms up all and i almost vomit . somehow there are times when i just wanna sit quietly at my bed , shutting myself from everyone , and i'll be fine .

i wore 3-quarter pants , t-shirt and shoes . afraid my legs will be cold . i took along my zara men's sweater . for someone who doesn't like vegetables and seldom eat fruits , i'm sick like once every 2 days . my body feels hot on the inside and cold on the outside . i wonder how i pull thru NS . went to shop around tampines mall den to century square, back to tampines mall . cy bought his shoe . went to buy tickets for night at the museum . the show make me laugh quite abit . but it seems like there's afew fantastic movies coming out soon . more reason for me to go out already . wait , since when i need to have a reason to go out ? lol . after the movie , took a mrt back to pasir ris . hmm saw an old friend of mine . not really old , but i last contacted her was like 1-2 years ago . shes only 14 lol . omg i forgot how i know her already . oh well. den went to macdonalds for a drink . after that my mom fetch me home . sry cy and nic , pang seh u . abit fever and my mom bought me dinner .

once i got home, straight to my computer . crystal and timo ask me go momo on 28th . most prob not going , but who knows if last minute we decide to go . but 31th we confirm going out . theres a party at expo but not interested . $30 per ticket . way to expansive . ekachai birthday falls on 1st jan . so its also countdown to his birthday . so maybe left with me and nicholas again . just now chat with priscilla maybe go out together during new year eve, but singapore is way to small . so... still no plans yet . i'm always planning so far ahead . so this time . i let nature take its course . i'm not gonna do anything about it .

haha i'm so lucky to hear the music composed by priscilla . its a really powerful music . its like putting your last and only hope on something or someone but yet its turn its back on u . but i think this was compose for ... him . i mean its impossible for somone not to feel touched man . arrrgh nvmind .



hmm.. i think i might be in love again . haha .. no , i'm serious .